On May 20th I completed 60 revolutions around the sun. For many months before my birthday, I had been doing a life review. Where have I been for 6 decades? What have I been doing? What have I accomplished? Have I really done anything with my life. Of course my questioning, while normal, was ludicrous. I have raised 2 totally amazing boys to become young men who are having an incredibly positive influence in our world. I have, as a Life Success Coach and Spiritual teacher, helped thousands of people along their way.
My hormones were a bit off and I was seeing my life through a lens that was cloudy. All I could see was that what I had done was not enough. I could have done more. I did things wrong. How could I be so dense, etc.
Then after many months of self judgment, the energy shifted. My eldest son, Sunny, called me on Mother’s Day. He and his precious wife Tisha were out of town for that weekend. My youngest son was not available either. There I was alone on Mother’s Day. Why can’t I have a normal family, I pondered.
When Sunny asked me how I am, suddenly it hit me. I am how I focus.
My boys and their wives love me and I love them dearly. I have prepared them for their awesome journey through life. The truth was that the flow for that day was to spend some time with nature and then work on the book that is almost completed. It was a gorgeous day. I have an awesome purpose. I answered Sunny, “I am how I decide to be. It really is that simple, isn’t it.” He responded, “Yep, it is Mom.” I began then to shift my focus from the challenges and the lack to what wonderful things I have going on in my life. I felt my energy lift. I was glad to be me and I was glad to be alive.
I was ready to become 60 and embrace this new decade of my life.
Joy
